Sent: Saturday, November 03, 2007 6:29 PM
Subject: Update on Jerrod
We left the hospital with Jerrod today at about 4:30. He is still a
little tender, but he is doing well and so glad to be out of the
Please continue to pray for Jerrod's continued healing and that
there are no complications.
We also ask your prayers for our ultimate safe return to Lubbock.
We love you all and are so grateful that you all have traveled this
journey with us. The journey began on September 29 when Jerrod told
us he was having some double vision. Suspecting the return of a lazy
eye that he had when he was four years old, we made an appointment
with our eye doctor. Following an appointment with Dr. Connie
Crossnoe and an appointment with Dr. Cockings, we were scheduled for
an MRI on October 3. Unaware of what the problem could be, we went
to the MRI appointment expecting to find out that Jerrod needed
glasses to correct some kind of a muscle problem. As we sat in the
waiting room for the MRI in a rather cavalier way, we read
magazines. But then I looked outside and these words came to me so
clearly. "Jerry, will you always love me?" I was terrified. I began
to tell myself, that's ridiculous, why would I have a thought like
that. Again the question came, "Jerry, will you always love me?"
Silently I began to talk to God - "Wait, we are only here to find
out that Jerrod needs glasses, or that maybe he has sinus problems."
"Jerry, I'm just asking you, will you always love me?" I began to
silently go through an inner torment. I could not tell Carla or
Jerrod, I could only keep telling God, that we didn't come here to
find out anything that is bad news. But the question continued...
but I was too afraid to answer the question. After the MRI we went
home and I sat down at the computer to work. Within an hour we
received a phone call from the Dr. telling us "Jerrod has a mass or
a tumor in the middle of his brain, and it isn't good." My head
dropped into my hands and my heart felt as if it would never beat
again. As I started to hyperventilate I heard the question again...
"Jerry, will you always love me?" Now I knew it was real. I knew I
had to answer the question. As my chest heaved as I cried I told the
Lord, "Yes, I will always love you. But please don't make me prove
it in this way." I kept putting that qualifier on my answer... and
the question continued... "Jerry, will you always love me?" Such a
simple question. Why could I not answer it? Finally, without a
qualifying statement at the end, in total resignation, in utter
despair and no place else to turn, I had to quietly answer. "Yes,
father, I will always love you." At that point, the question did not
come back. Amazing isn't it? It was at that point I had to let go of
everything that has the illusion of security and start walking down
a road in which I had no control. The road had no forks and no map
was needed. I just had to walk. I feel this road has just led me to
a new beginning point for my life. It is as if I have come through a
dark and terrifying forest and I now stand at the edge of that
forest with relief and gratitude. Before me I look down a path that
is lined with some familiar images yet I have no idea where this
path really leads. But one thing is clear - where He leads me, I
will follow. Together I walked into that forest with Him as He asked
me from the first day, "Jerry, will you always love me?" As I heaved
with sobs of horrific pain and fear I grabbed His hand, answered
"Yes, Father, I will always love you." And into the forest we went.
I know the path will lead me into other forests, beautiful meadows,
some days will bring sunshine and some days will bring rain, but the
path continues. Now as I look at that path I will always remember
His question to me the day of the MRI - "Jerry, will you always love
me?" My answer is the same - "Yes, father, I will always love you."
Well, I did it again, I sat down to tell you we are out of the
hospital and I started telling a story. But it is the most beautiful
story I know. The cool thing is that each of you reading this has
the same story to tell. if you need any help getting started - let
me help you. It starts like this:
"Jesus loves me this I know..." I think you can take it from there.
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