Sent: Wednesday, October 10, 2007 5:50 PM
Subject: Wednesday -
Jerrod is sleeping, and again... the sound of his breathing is the
most beautiful music.
Russ Horn worked all night to get a website up for Jerrod. The
address is: www.jerrodshelton.com
I will continue to send email update, and Russ will post part or all
of them on the web site. Russ may need a bit of help with elements
of the site, so if that is one of your gifts and you are willing to
help, just let Russ know. If you have great photos of Jerrod you
would like to post you may email them to Russ.
He has been working on it non stop. We have a list on the site of
those who have visited here at the hospital... if your name did not
get on the list we deeply apologize and will happily add your name.
We want to add all names of those who visit because it will help us
remember and it will be an encouragement to Jerrod. We have wireless
in Jerrod's room and we can show him all of this on-line. In fact I
am sitting here beside his bed even now.
Russ will be adding lists of things you can do to help on the site.
I think he will also post inspiring stories that we are hearing. For
example, he said everyone at LCS is wearing buttons with Jerrod's
photo today. Thank you all for that.
He just had a good lunch of pecan crusted trout, sweet potatoes,
seasoned carrots, a dinner roll and iced tea and apple juice.
Dr. Morgan just came in to discuss the surgery. Jerrod's catheter is
leaking a little, but Dr. Morgan was not concerned about that. I
asked what the odds are of this being benign. He said it depends. He
said in pediatrics they are usually benign and treatable. In adults
the odds go the other direction. But he said Jerrod is right in
between. The range between 12 and 25 are kind of the gray area of
pediatrics and adult. In addition, he said this could have been a
pediatric tumor that he has had for a long time and is just now
causing the problem. SO, that is something to add to our prayers.
Pray that this tumor is benign!
I want to spend a minute typing some things that are on my heart and
feel compelled to write.
Let me begin by saying I know most of you know what an outstanding
young man Jerrod is. But I want to help enlighten you just a bit.
When someone is hurting Jerrod has always been very moved by that.
When someone is left out, Jerrod wanted to include them. When
someone is sad, Jerrod wants to encourage. When I have ever said I
was going to do something to help someone it was Jerrod who always
encouraged me to do more. Here's a big one... once in a while I
would learn that someone had done something to hurt Jerrod's
feelings, or was mean to him in some way. Or bullied him. I would
ask, Jerrod who did that? His response was always the same... Daddy
I don't want to tell you, because I don't want you to think less of
them. You may think I am kidding, but it is the absolute truth. He
always defended those who hurt him. He never wanted me to be angry
at anyone for those things. He always said, "it's okay daddy, I can
I don't write that because I want anyone to feel badly, I write that
because I want you to know what I am learning. I love Jerrod just
because he is my son - and that's enough. But I love him with an
intensity I can't describe because of who he is. (stay with me on
this) I have always wanted to love Jesus more. I have a hard time
with the images that have been portrayed in even the best Hollywood
attempts. He is either portrayed as a man of no apparent emotion or
a guy who just walks around with a silly grin on his face. Here's
what I know now. Jesus was perfect so I know he was the one who
included the one who was left out. He is the one who said, "Hey, man
- come down from that tree. I want to go home with you and spend
some time with you today." He was the one who took care of those who
are sick. He is the one who defends those who hurt Him. He is the
one who tells His Father, "Abba, Daddy, I don't want you to know it
was jerry who hurt me, because I don't want you to think any less of
him. I can handle it."
You know, I have always kind of wondered how the gospel works. Yes,
Jesus died for my sin. I know that. Yes, if I believe and love Jesus
I have a home in Heaven. I believe that. But I always wondered why
it works that way. Why isn't it some spiritual act I can do to get
my card punched and get in. Why can't I just get a to do list from
God and complete that for my entrance. Or how come it's not based on
how many scriptures I can memorize or why isn't it that I have to
learn algebra to be accepted. (Thank God that's not the case) So,
what is it about this simple thing about loving Jesus? What's really
up with that? Have you ever wondered that too? I am not exactly a
rocket scientist so I'm won't be surprised if I'm the only one. But
I truly believe that is why we are so tempted to accept a works
Okay, I love analogies, so stay with me on this. I am in no way
trying to place my self in any way on the same plane with God. But
I have realized that I have an incredible feeling of love for each
of you who are praying for Jerrod. If you love Jerrod and are
praying for him... I love you. Case closed - that's it, that's all
you have to do is love my son and pray for him and I love you. (see
where I am on this) I don't care what you have done in the past. I
don't care if you have hurt me, I don't care if you have hurt Jerrod
in the past. I don't care if you have made many mistakes in your
life... if you love my son and are praying for him, I love you. If
you love my son, you have a place to stay in my home any time. If
you love my son, I will defend you. If you love my son and pray for
him you are my family. Do you see the beauty in that?
Now I totally understand. Now I know why God wants us to come live
with him if we will only believe in and love His son. Wow. And I can
now see that Jesus is the kind of man I can easily love. He is the
one who would have stood between me and the bullies who beat me up
in 9th grade every day. He is the one who would have told people,
"don't say that about him, I love him." He is the one who would have
gently helped me when I struggled in school. He is the one who would
sit with me and cry when I hurt. He is the one! He really is my best
friend. I have said that all my life. We have so many "churchy"
things to say about Jesus. We say these things until our language
becomes a jargon the world laughs and doesn't understand. But now I
know. Now I know what people need to know about the God we all love.
Okay, I could go on and on. And I apologize for sermonizing in this
email, but I am just so moved and excited about knowing why God
wants me to love His son! I will spend the rest of my life trying to
find ways to show my love... and it begins with telling you - I love
you and so does He, and so does Jerrod, and so does Carla and so
does Carly, and so does... That is what God wants you to know.